A Posthumous Letter(A letter by a soldier to his family)

If it's there,then i'm no more,
don't think i'm dead,rather i've reached my ultimate shore,
neither do gripe nor make a roar,
oh mom and paa!,thou need me but my country needs me more.

Tears are for everyone and so is fear,
fear of losing a life so much dear,
never lose hope for i'm near,
if thou are reading it,just say i've overcome my fear.

Don't be ingenous or mask your tears,
search me in contentment and wear a smile for years,
a smile so true and much more clear,
to tell me that "oh my son you have been a gallant soldier,my dear".

The only flaw that hurdles my thought,
if i had been a good son or not,
being the janitor i served the earth,

i promise to serve thou both,if i get another birth.